With a Little Help From My Friends

This may sound a bit over dramatic so just bear with me ok?......

I was in a conversation the other day, regarding how the devil attacks you when you are going right along doing what you are supposed to do. I also read about that very thing in a devotional not long ago. It's very easy to offer encouragement to someone it's happening to, but extremely hard to deal with, when you are the one being attacked. We all have experienced it at one time or another so I know you all understand how devastating some small thing can feel when you are in the middle of it. You have trouble realizing it will pass, and you feel as if the world is falling apart and you can't do anything about it. Friends tell you it's not a big deal. Family tell you that you did nothing wrong. The devil's demons continue to whisper in your ear, reminding you how upset you are, how bad it really is, how badly you messed up, what terrible thing could result....on and on until I myself, can barely function. I had an experience yesterday that has caused me a great deal of pain and tears. It's not something I'm at liberty to discuss, but if I was, I know I would get resounding support from all of you. I was attacked with such force, that I am in a overwhelming place of grief and unhappiness. No, no one I love died, I didn't break any laws that I am aware of, but my body and emotions are reacting as if that was the case.

This is the way B handles this type of incident. My heart and body shut down. I grieve heavily and until I can cry it all out, or find some kind of resolution, I will not be able to "shake it off" and "not worry about it" as my coworkers are encouraging me to do. I also agonize over the fact that I am not able to stand up and deal with it. Why can't I just get mad and blow up, then it will be over. Why can't I stand up for myself, a be comfortable facing the issue full on and getting it resolved in my head and heart, regardless of the outcome?

So, with a little help from my friends, I can make it through the day and come out at the end of it without my head full of tears that I'm trying not to shed, and my mind able to think on things other than my predicament. Prayer warriors, today will you ride into battle? I need some peace, I need my body to relax enough that I am not in pain from my head to my shoulder blades. I need my heart to let this go. Will you pray for me?

And this too shall pass..........................