The last several months, I have had it pretty easy. Lots of great things happening, a new baby to adore, my backyard shaping up, really getting some painting and quilting done. All has been right with the world, and I've thanked God for my life being how it is just about every day before I even get out of bed. Been on the mountain top man. M O U N T A I N T O P I tell ya. But in the back of my mind, the nagging thought runs round and round. This is just too good to last. So, I kept expecting the bottom to fall out, or something major to change.
Here comes my valley. My mom is sick again. I've spent the last three days at the hospital with her and we really won't know exactly what's happening until tomorrow. Symptoms started out like a virus, her labs were bad, and she felt bad, so we wound up in the ER. Two units of blood and IV fluids later, she is still sick as a dog (as they say in the south) and a CT of her abdomen is showing something fishy. She was in a closer smaller hospital, simply because it's easier for me to deal with her there. The drive is not so hard, the patient load not so demanding, and they have always treated her well. This is above their capabilities, so they sent her to UAMS to get back under the care of her oncologist.
Tomorrow we will see what is what. And you know, it will be what it will be. God is in control and I have faith that He will work His will. The fatigue and uncertainty, the lack of knowing what to do....those are the things that are getting to me. I am thankful I have a couple of sisters who can help me a little. One still has children at home and it's hard for her to help, but she does all she can. The other has a very demanding job, and is not able to help much. My other two siblings live too far away to help at all. But if I can get a breather, I can handle it. (With God's help)
I'll keep you posted as I can. If you think of us, say a little prayer. They are always welcome.