Tuesday, February 16, 2010

At Loose Ends...

It's hard to know what to do, when you are waiting on someone to meet the Lord. You sit and stare into space, you fidget, you watch each labored breath, you pace. When you aren't with your loved one, you wring your hands, wondering if you should be there, what you should do while you are at home, but you really can't find the brain power to concentrate on much of anything.

We watch as the breathing gets slower and harder. Each time there is a pause, we are startled, wondering if it will resume. We tell each other to go home for a while and get some rest, but no one really wants to leave, and no one really wants to be there either.  We pray for God to do our will, and not His own.

I always repeat to myself that He gives us what we need as we need it. And He never gives us a burden that He doesn't give us the strength to carry. That is the only thing that keeps us going.

So, I find myself at loose ends. I do a little housework along, I go back and forth to keep watch, I work a little on mindless tasks to fill the time. I fret for it all to be over, long for God's peace to fill all of us, including our loved one.  Time seems to stand still, but we still understand that He is in control. 

Praise God from Whom all blessings flow.
Praise Him all creatures here below.
Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts.
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost.


Lisa said...

Big hugs... this is a hard time,I remember it all to well with my memaw.

Y said...

Here's another BIG hug and a prayer for you all.