The past couple of days, I've been contemplating a return to part time work. An opportunity presented itself, and I seriously considered it. I prayed, agonized, told the person I was interested, talked it over with SR, and still didn't know what to do. I failed to weigh all the pros and cons. Yesterday, he and I did just that. And we decided together, (no matter how much I want to blame/credit him with the decision) that I would pass.
Then last night and this morning, the Lord reminded me of some things. I remembered how much I wanted to be at home, when I was working. How I hated getting up to leave the house every day. How I felt like my life was on hold, and that being at home all the time would start it up again.
I was tempted by the lure of money, activity, and well....prestige. Sometimes I feel as if I am not important, or doing anything of real worth. And as I read my devotional for this morning, God spoke to me again, reiterating, our agreement to allow me to stay at home. In the Journey devotional guide for women today:
**We are reminded in Romans 12:4 that "We have many parts in one body, and all the parts do not have the same function." No matter what your job description, take pride in how you do your job. Whether you are a stay-at-home mom, a dog walker, or a cafeteria worker, the status of your job is really not the issue. Your attitude and obedience is what matters most to God.**
In being free to stay at home, I feel more inclined to participate in God's work. I have been studying my Bible more, am trying to join church activities, am able to take care of my Mom without the stress of losing a day at work, can do more for my husband, not to mention keep my house in order easier. No, there isn't any extra money, and we have to pinch those pennies, but the rewards outweigh the drawbacks. I just have to keep reminding myself, and asking God to do the same.
I'm not saying I will turn down the right part time gig, but I right now, I am refreshed in my decision to stay at home. I am reminded how blessed I am.