Thursday, January 6, 2011

It is Done

At 6:00 a.m. my mother passed away from my sight. She is not dead. I fully believe she is in the presence of the Living God with my father. It was hard to let her go, but was so heart wrenching to watch her lay in that bed suffering. She was surrounded by her five children. I was not at her bedside, having gone home for a break, but she waited until I got back to pass. How loving. How humbling.

My family and I have had an outpouring of love and comfort from family, friends and acquaintances. It's amazing how one woman touched so many lives. And it's very strange to know she will not be in that house for us to gather around any longer. The pain comes and goes, and will do so for a while. Do you ever get over losing your parents? Are we officially orphans now? I've been sleeping with one ear to the phone so long, waiting for a call from or about her, I don't know how to sleep any other way.

The finality of it is almost devastating, there is no getting away from it or around it. We will lay her earthly body down beside my father Saturday afternoon. That gives us a measure of peace.

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, no more fears....He'll wipe away the tears.....


Sooz & Hawk said...

There really are no words when someone we love so much passes away. I heard this song on the drive home today and I love the words. Praying for you and your family.

With Hope by Stephen Curtis Chapman
This is not at all how
We thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you, but ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again

And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now you're home
And now you're free, and ...

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true, so ...

So we can cry with hope
And say goodbye with hope

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope

Anonymous said...

Beautifully said. Same as my thoughts when my Mom passed away June 1st. Love you and prayers going up for your family!

Aunt Trish

Belinda said...

What lovely lyrics and so appropriate. Especially the last four lines. Thank you both, and love to you.

Erin said...

aw, dearie. i've been thinking of and praying for you often these past few days. when lele told me, my heart dropped for you.

how comforting to know she's pain-free and living with our Father now.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved Mum. I don't know what I'd do without mine. This must be a very distressing time for you and your family. My thoughts are with you.
Megs x